I had a breakthrough. I shrank after I expanded. And now I’m listening closely…
I needed this article from Danielle LaPorte today in the best of ways because it explained what I couldn’t explain.
I had an unbelievable workshop in March. There were nine of us and I thought that was pretty rock star awesome out of the gate. It was beautiful, nourishing, perfect, expansive – so expansive and when I closed the doors and sat down, what I wanted to feel was elation in the sweetest, softest way. I wanted to take a bath and just nestle into the transformational work the women did and all the glorious gifts they left from the experience of the Desire Map gave them. And yet – that was not my experience at all. I kind of dropped off the map, judged my lack of feeling amazing, didn’t really capture our experience for the DM community, even registered for B-School which was great but it felt flat, and I got quiet.
If you’ve been following me you know that shit is happening – lots of letting go, freeing up, moving on, and an ass-load of full fuller fuller open open open -- I am breaking through – and I realize that getting quiet is what I needed. Ego can shut the fuck up. There’s no judgement here. I’ve spent the past two months in self-care, exercising hard, green juicing, developing a solid daily spiritual meditative practice, two Reiki sessions, a call with a psychic, and lots of late night calls with a friend who loves me.
I’m feeling solid and light and available to the world once more. Now I see and now I know and now I can get back to work.
What to do after you have a breakthrough. (You're going to shrink after you expand, so, listen closely.)
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